Beauty, its you.

She still sung me lullabies even when I was 17.
Her hands on my forehead were my reassurance that no nightmares can haunt my sleep.
Her smile was the beauty I never could paint.
And her eyes were the seas that never dried up.
She used to cry when she was tired of staying strong,
Yet she always came up with a blow,
She was a my one and only backup.
A true friend to begin with.

Her I have hurted a lot,
And how she saw past it all and loved me a lot.
To have her is my true blessing.
She taught me about my God.
Took me closer to my own heart.
Told me it's okay to have wild eyes and crazy dreams.
To be her daughter is my favorite fairytale come true.

Thank you mom for all the priceless things you have given me,
The love , the care, the warmth.
Thank you for praying for me,
To keep you cherished is one of my dreams.
You're the one who has loved me even in my darkest times.
You told me what life is and what is the hereafter.

You're the one I fear to lose,
For I know I cannot find your heart anywhere else.

The sea in your eyes.

Surely you hold magic in those depths,
And mostly you know what I hold in my thoughts.
So when you are taking your last deep breath,
I hope you remember the time we laughed like kids.
The days when we planned about the future though we had no clue about our tomorrows.
The time when we felt the rain while others ran for shelter,
The day when you realized you have a stoop and you need a wall to lean onto.
And the day you understood my reason for having faith.

So when you dream about a garden I hope I am the one who planted the flowers.
And when you look at the night sky I wish for you to see the light in your mind.
When the thunder hits I hope you clutch my hand tighter.
The way you smile is my favorite photograph.
So when I leave for the hereafter ,
I need to know you'll still be strong.
That you'll think of the lightning as my own soul.


I'll leave this world behind,
But you'll have a piece of me all the time.
For what is our friendship I still don't know,
But you knew me more than I used to do.
Your my piece of art, which heaven had made.

Those words.

He had a big heart and a soft one to be true,
He could only love and his anger only proved it to be more correct.
And he sacrificed his worldly pleasures for the ones he loved.
He was a man of his words.
He could joke all night, laugh to everything.
He knew everything except how to hide his heavy heart.
For his eyes betrayed him, his voice shattered his mask.
He was a man with an army he called family.

He showed no signs of regrets.
He loved his God so much,
With it he brought his family close to heaven.
He might not look all perfect, yet his flaws are a story to be read.
He never cried yet he always felt the pain.
He is handsome in his own way.

No wonder I adore him so much.
So does the rest of his family,
For when you feel and know his heart,
You'd never want to lose him to anyone, and even death.
So here I write all my love for my father.
My true knight in shining armor.
He has protected me through my storms,
He has loved us all.
His heart is what I admire.
For my dad will always top my chart of gentlemen.
He is the soul that burns to keep us warm.

Know this now, all of us,
Our fathers have done more than they could
They have given us everything.
So to thank him is just a small part
But to love him is the most important one.

Future of our past.

You are not in my mind anymore,
You've taken my soul to the depths where I thought I would drown.
You showed me the secrets to myself,
And hence I went alone in my own way.
Looking back I seem to have no way back, only towards the sun do I find my heart yearn.
Those eyes that peered through the darkness and left a burning in my bones.
The pair of eyes that dreamed awake,
The one who stayed up late to make no plans.

Is it soaking in tears now?
Oh when did you think you could turn away?
Did you forget about your dreams and crazy plans?
Or is it me who has become tired and not my eyes?
So won't you take another step with me?
Renew our promise and make a new wish?

So our heartbeats are the same tonight.
Let's drink down all those tears.
Get high on every storm and break down every wall.
Talk about what's hidden and not what's being faked.
Let's keep the night longer and the day waiting.
Let's not escape, rather let's create another world tonight

You can keep me but I'm always on the brink of life.
So if you're ready to fight some storms and to climb some hills,
I'd take you as my risk for eternity.
For I need a soul that needs no explaining to understand mine.
So my past is yours now.
But my future is not yet created, so you won't get any trailer.
Now tell me are you ready to make a future without any past to cling onto?

Ruins of another dream

Promises are mere words out in the air,
and dreams are like no other mysteries that keep us wanting.
So sugar coating your lies won't help you tonight,
I'm leaving before you wake up tomorrow.
Clear skies or not I'll hold an umbrella,
Twist and turn the ring you gave me in my fingers.
Walk home humming to myself the lullaby from my childhood.
Hoping it all to turn into ashes and hide beneath my soul.
For I need to leave here and wake up some place new.
I don't mind it being your heart,
As long as I don't have to be running from what's within those eyes,
I've had another drink to suffice my fires.

So when we are wearing down and seeing stars instead of ceilings,
Maybe you can tell me another tale to ponder upon,
To wonder what it is like to have a tear roll down my cheeks .
Yet to not know what's beating me up inside.
Closure is what you seek,
I want the essence of you to know that I can trust you.
To know what's behind those walls you so call as guards.
You have only had one thing keep you up and that's your fear.
So tonight let me wander through your maze.
If I come to you at the end of it,
Will you make me stay?

walls

They tried to wear me down for reasons that don't exist.
Now that I've grown tonight, i see the truth about your sights.
The things that confused me a long while ago.
The wanting to see a trailer for my future,
Digging deep and trying to find what's hidden.
What might not be there at all.
What should i search for?
Should i look for the answers i need to hear or,
For the questions that i need to keep myself alive in?

For the reasons her heart didn't know
For all they knew she was a wild card.
To be burnt even when she can't be brought down as flames.
To be shaken off when the morning are not as misty as they could be.
To wake up next to another soul,
To dream wide awake and feel safe.

To lose what was mine once to become who I am now.
To be like another angel taken by the hypothesis of his desires.
To not know what it was when it was said to be mine.
For all I knew, this is not another last time.
When it ends I'll have the memories of a beautiful dream.
And I'll know what I have been given,
I'll know what it takes to meet you again.
So I'll take that chance and break some bones .
Maybe we can meet tonight in the same old place we used to waste our days,
But this time let's never part,
For I've seen your heart.

Dive into my soul tonight,
Tread my scars and tell me what you feel.
So that I'll know what you mean and what you feel,
So crave me and take me deep into the depths your eyes seem to have,
I need no fairy tales tonight, I'm sleeping like a baby by your voice.
For you're  my family and my veins are making patterns to match yours.
Let's stay alive together.

embers of life.

your pictures lay around my floor,
your voice breaks through my silence,
making me run towards the places we used to roam.
and i came home to find an empty room filled with memories from those days,
your side of the bed was messed up, your shoes by the door.
so i waited by the window,
as it rained it seemed to synchronise with my breath.

i walked home knowing she is already there,
and i was sure she was in another fight.
she wont know my arrival until my hands touch hers.
she seem so lost these days,
or are these just my thoughts clouding my reasons.
as i reach the door i remember who was staying inside,
the one who stayed through the storm by me.
the one who knew how to smile through the darkness.

as i turn i remember my purpose.
that this time i can fall and still feel strong.
maybe i am young, maybe i have grown tonight.
we chose to leave it all behind when we could have gone our separate ways.
so i told myself, when the skies get rough
the ones who stay below it, gazing up, are the ones who makes an effort.
the ones who read with the emotions that confuses them.

so here we are, where we were but it's different tonight.
we seem to be awake and this feels like another dream.
so we take a deep breath and we see our mist fade.
so tonight lets burn and collapse in the morning.
we can be the smoke from the fags tomorrow.

here we remain, like never before.
out of our mistakes and out of those days.
making the memories we need to look back at.
so if we need to leave we can leave and meet back in these memories,
like corners of the world that cannot be found in any map,
you and i, the stars we wished for.