walls

They tried to wear me down for reasons that don't exist.
Now that I've grown tonight, i see the truth about your sights.
The things that confused me a long while ago.
The wanting to see a trailer for my future,
Digging deep and trying to find what's hidden.
What might not be there at all.
What should i search for?
Should i look for the answers i need to hear or,
For the questions that i need to keep myself alive in?

For the reasons her heart didn't know
For all they knew she was a wild card.
To be burnt even when she can't be brought down as flames.
To be shaken off when the morning are not as misty as they could be.
To wake up next to another soul,
To dream wide awake and feel safe.

To lose what was mine once to become who I am now.
To be like another angel taken by the hypothesis of his desires.
To not know what it was when it was said to be mine.
For all I knew, this is not another last time.
When it ends I'll have the memories of a beautiful dream.
And I'll know what I have been given,
I'll know what it takes to meet you again.
So I'll take that chance and break some bones .
Maybe we can meet tonight in the same old place we used to waste our days,
But this time let's never part,
For I've seen your heart.

Dive into my soul tonight,
Tread my scars and tell me what you feel.
So that I'll know what you mean and what you feel,
So crave me and take me deep into the depths your eyes seem to have,
I need no fairy tales tonight, I'm sleeping like a baby by your voice.
For you're  my family and my veins are making patterns to match yours.
Let's stay alive together.

embers of life.

your pictures lay around my floor,
your voice breaks through my silence,
making me run towards the places we used to roam.
and i came home to find an empty room filled with memories from those days,
your side of the bed was messed up, your shoes by the door.
so i waited by the window,
as it rained it seemed to synchronise with my breath.

i walked home knowing she is already there,
and i was sure she was in another fight.
she wont know my arrival until my hands touch hers.
she seem so lost these days,
or are these just my thoughts clouding my reasons.
as i reach the door i remember who was staying inside,
the one who stayed through the storm by me.
the one who knew how to smile through the darkness.

as i turn i remember my purpose.
that this time i can fall and still feel strong.
maybe i am young, maybe i have grown tonight.
we chose to leave it all behind when we could have gone our separate ways.
so i told myself, when the skies get rough
the ones who stay below it, gazing up, are the ones who makes an effort.
the ones who read with the emotions that confuses them.

so here we are, where we were but it's different tonight.
we seem to be awake and this feels like another dream.
so we take a deep breath and we see our mist fade.
so tonight lets burn and collapse in the morning.
we can be the smoke from the fags tomorrow.

here we remain, like never before.
out of our mistakes and out of those days.
making the memories we need to look back at.
so if we need to leave we can leave and meet back in these memories,
like corners of the world that cannot be found in any map,
you and i, the stars we wished for.

Roots

When you rise up above these walls,
I pray that you are strong enough to survive these storms.
To look into the eyes of the things that haunt your dreams.
To believe you have a heart that needs no more mending,
For you have been loved by the one who has seen your heart in your eyes.
Shook you to your core and made you feel alive .
These are the words she took from your throat.
These may be the cause for her staying.

Heart so pure as ice, breath so warm like the sun.
Fires that have become the embers to your dreams.
She saw the things you have hid from others.
She saw perfection amidst your chaotic eyes.
When the darkness had a hold on you, she wanted to breathe life into you
She had a wanting to know,
The darkest corners of yours were her favorite wonders.
And she knew life had done her an adventure,
To breathe next to you but to be her.
Happiness is her name for you.

This is the craving you had yearned for.
She had love in her very own soul,
Swimming deep into yours.
She touched and turned all into what she saw.
Her faith in God grew stronger.

This was not the end and this will never be an archetype.
To stay on the wild side of life ,
They hoped to join stars in favor of them tonight.
To dream together miles apart.
These are the unsaid phrases of life.

All this while...

Take a deep breath,
If you fall I'd still be here
The world's got a lot in it
A bunch of extroverts and introverts and a few proud wallflowers
But then there are a lot of faded names on the wall
So let's never go down in any of them.
Let's stay up here where everything is as beautiful as a hypothesis.
Let's be as hysterical as we can.
So that when the morning comes,
We can escape like the smoke from our fags.

So let's cry one more time before we leave
With red eyes and tear stained cheeks.
Chapped lips and messy hair,
With more than a life long songs.
We can scream and never look back.
It's either this way for us after midnight,
Or we could go our separate ways.
Know that we loved like one of a kind,
Even if I'm not holding your hand tonight,I'm here,
Joining the stars to spell your name in the sky.

Crowns and souls

Mend me up and tear me down.

Burn me alive for you can never face your fears

You tried to keep me down, but I wanted to run free,

I cannot be your sanctum and it scarred you my dear.

You love is like another hypothesis,

and your face like another beautiful dream

I was done living by your strings,

I got scars to wear and be proud of

While I miss you in the back of my mind,

I see you no more as immaculate as I once fancied.

Now hold your fort close,

I'm crashing like a tide on your demons

I've got only me and nothing to lose.

I'm losing you to gain me now,

your sorrows can be drowned in your dried up well of love.

I'm here with my memories now, a million of them to hold me high

I've got no hand to hold onto other than mine

Yet I've never felt more alive.

For now I love myself more than my imperfections,

And I am not afraid to risk it all,

Cause when I sleep , I sleep heavenly without a wail anymore.